The Start
Alright I have tried starting this too many times so here we go. I have rewritten this first blog so many times. I think it is because I was trying to start blogging for everyone else when I forgot who this blog was really for and about..which is me. I need this, a place to write about my days and my moments, my happiness, my sadness, and watching my kids grow up.
I feel like my life never really started until my husband and I had out baby. Beatrice June Bengtzen, Just barely 4 months old. Man when she was born everything changed. Even when we got married I don't know if I would say life truly started. We lived in the honeymoon phase for a long time and it was amazing and wonderful. We could literally do whatever we wanted whenever we wanted. But now with a child things are different. You have a major responsibility, a human being. You know I don't think anyone really talks about how huge it is to have a baby. We all celebrate it so so much but no one really tells you that that thing that is about to exit your body is a LIVING BREATHING HUMAN THAT YOU ARE RESPONSIBLE FOR FOREVER. It's a huge deal.
Giving birth to her was a wild ride honestly. At 34 weeks pregnant I got rear ended by a 19 year old kid who was texting and driving. Side note don't text and drive just don't. When we pulled over he took one look at me and said "Oh my gosh are you pregnant?!" and I told him yes. Then off to the hospital I went. I went into labor for 7 hours. Luckily they stopped it but for the next four weeks I was in hell. Even more so then the hell that the last trimester of pregnancy is. I got high blood pressure and was then induced at 38 weeks.
I then proceeded to be in labor for 21 hours. I only dilated to a 4! They broke my water at 2 hours into labor so by this point I had 1 more hour left to get to a 10. It wasn't going to happen so I had a C-Section. I will tell you I did not believe there was actually a baby inside of me until they pulled my little munchkin out and I heard that first little cry. Ever since then I have been hooked on that little cutie.
Although I love her to death there are hard days. Days where I feel like running away, days where i just want to sit in the shower and cry, days that I do not want to get out of bed. I know all of us mamas have felt that. But with the hard times comes also amazing wonderful happy times! Like watching your little one grow up, and hit small milestones, and see then smile at you, the first laughs, and not to mention all of the spit up. I wouldn't trade anything for being a mom. When I had her I remember saying to my dad, "I feel like I just got a job that I never knew I wanted."
What I want to do here is share my good days and my bad. The ups and the downs. The happy days and the sad! So this is the start, this is where my life begins with my family. My husband, my daughter and all of the future kids to come! I can't wait to see what all life has in store!
I feel like my life never really started until my husband and I had out baby. Beatrice June Bengtzen, Just barely 4 months old. Man when she was born everything changed. Even when we got married I don't know if I would say life truly started. We lived in the honeymoon phase for a long time and it was amazing and wonderful. We could literally do whatever we wanted whenever we wanted. But now with a child things are different. You have a major responsibility, a human being. You know I don't think anyone really talks about how huge it is to have a baby. We all celebrate it so so much but no one really tells you that that thing that is about to exit your body is a LIVING BREATHING HUMAN THAT YOU ARE RESPONSIBLE FOR FOREVER. It's a huge deal.
Giving birth to her was a wild ride honestly. At 34 weeks pregnant I got rear ended by a 19 year old kid who was texting and driving. Side note don't text and drive just don't. When we pulled over he took one look at me and said "Oh my gosh are you pregnant?!" and I told him yes. Then off to the hospital I went. I went into labor for 7 hours. Luckily they stopped it but for the next four weeks I was in hell. Even more so then the hell that the last trimester of pregnancy is. I got high blood pressure and was then induced at 38 weeks.
I then proceeded to be in labor for 21 hours. I only dilated to a 4! They broke my water at 2 hours into labor so by this point I had 1 more hour left to get to a 10. It wasn't going to happen so I had a C-Section. I will tell you I did not believe there was actually a baby inside of me until they pulled my little munchkin out and I heard that first little cry. Ever since then I have been hooked on that little cutie.
Although I love her to death there are hard days. Days where I feel like running away, days where i just want to sit in the shower and cry, days that I do not want to get out of bed. I know all of us mamas have felt that. But with the hard times comes also amazing wonderful happy times! Like watching your little one grow up, and hit small milestones, and see then smile at you, the first laughs, and not to mention all of the spit up. I wouldn't trade anything for being a mom. When I had her I remember saying to my dad, "I feel like I just got a job that I never knew I wanted."
What I want to do here is share my good days and my bad. The ups and the downs. The happy days and the sad! So this is the start, this is where my life begins with my family. My husband, my daughter and all of the future kids to come! I can't wait to see what all life has in store!
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